McMurphy's Tavern0230 ZULUI walk into McMurphy's, the place of so many of my revelations, and look around. Harm is not with me, I am alone in this. He had to pick up Mattie and thought that it would be better if I conquered this alone. He told me to figure things out and then come to him when I've decided what's important to me. I love Harm so much, he's been there for me for ten years, through every heartbreak and every downfall. But Fox, Fox was the first man I truly fell in love with. He was the one who forced me to dry out and the first man to love me for every part of me. We had fallen in love so fast and he proposed a month after he met me, it took Harm ten years. I love them both and now, how am I to decide?I finally see Fox and Dana sitting in a both at the end of the bar. Taking a deep breath, I folded my hands in front of my stomach, and made my way towards them. The look I am getting from Dana is a look that could kill and my head begins to hurt as I think of her blow. But I saw the look in her eyes when I kissed Fox, obviously her man. And I feel guilty, but I love him, and couldn't help but indulge myself."Fox..." I murmur as I step up to the table.
I am whimpering and sweating and bucking until Fox grabs my waist, comes forward, and pushes me backwards. I land flat on my back at the opposite end of the couch. Grabbing my wrists, he holds them over my head as he unzips my jeans and manages to get them off with one hand, then does the same to his own. His lips are on my face at first, all over, my eyes, chin, lips. But he slowly makes his way down my neck, onto my chest, taking in each nipple one at a time and caring for both equally. Then his tongue makes rings around my bellybutton and I buck against him once more. With his teeth, he pulls my panties down away from my waist, using his hands to pull them down off of my legs and quickly disposes of his boxer briefs. He is as well-endowed as I remember and I quickly remember how he uses his large bestowment. Without a breath, he thrusts into me roughly, locking his lips to mine, still holding my hands over my head with one hand. I whimper and scream and giggle and buck and finally, we settle into an equilibrium, a rhythm all our own. And that's when he leans back, pulling me with him, keeping me tight against his body. He lands on his back at the end of the couch where we started. He bucks a few more times and then together, we reach climax and release. I fall breathless against his sweaty, taut, hot body, and realize that I'm crying. Tears are falling down my cheeks onto his warm body, and his hands tangle in my hair. "Sarah," he whispers against my ear, "I love you." I lift my head and meet his eyes. He kisses my forehead and that's when I smell the alcohol on his breath. I hadn't tasted it, but I smelled it. "Fox, this was all a mistake, wasn't it? You don't mean what you're saying, do you?" He smiled and licks his lips, letting his fingers glide down my spine. "I do Sarah, I only had one drink tonite. I'm in a perfect state of mind. It's true, I love you, I love what you do to me." I sense a but coming on, and I know that I'm right. "But I love Dana too..."