McMurphy's Tavern0230 ZULUI walk into McMurphy's, the place of so many of my revelations, and look around. Harm is not with me, I am alone in this. He had to pick up Mattie and thought that it would be better if I conquered this alone. He told me to figure things out and then come to him when I've decided what's important to me. I love Harm so much, he's been there for me for ten years, through every heartbreak and every downfall. But Fox, Fox was the first man I truly fell in love with. He was the one who forced me to dry out and the first man to love me for every part of me. We had fallen in love so fast and he proposed a month after he met me, it took Harm ten years. I love them both and now, how am I to decide?I finally see Fox and Dana sitting in a both at the end of the bar. Taking a deep breath, I folded my hands in front of my stomach, and made my way towards them. The look I am getting from Dana is a look that could kill and my head begins to hurt as I think of her blow. But I saw the look in her eyes when I kissed Fox, obviously her man. And I feel guilty, but I love him, and couldn't help but indulge myself."Fox..." I murmur as I step up to the table.
*It broke my heart to watch her go, and it was tearing me up inside that I did this to her, but it had to be. I understood completely that she needed to get away from me, and I didn't blame her one bit. Time away from one another would do us both some good, no matter how much it hurt, I knew it was the only real solution. I whispered softly.* "I understand Scully. Goodbye." *I said nothing more, just let her kiss my cheek and walk away, watching her walk out my door, and possibly my life, forever.*