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Three weeks after the last H/M scene...
by jarhead_marine (jarhead_marine)
at September 24th, 2005 (11:27 am)

1100 ZULU

Harm sticks his head in the doorway and smiles. "Hey, you ready to go to lunch." I nod and close a file on a new case I'm working on, finally glad to have something different than that damned ex-FBI agent file.
"Yeah, just let me close stuff up here." I close all the open windows on my computer and stand up. But a pain shoots through my back. I lean over towards my desk, grabbing it, and my face shows the pain. Harm, being the man he is, rushes towards me.
"You okay?" I nod.
"Yeah, I just uh... I stood up too fast."
"You're full of it Mac. It's the endometriosis, isn't it? When was your last doctor's appointment?" I laugh and meet his eyes.
"Mom, I'm fine. Okay? My last appointment was three months ago, I just stood up too fast. I'm fine, really." I stand up straight and the pain is gone. But I'm instantly worried. I had surgery, they fixed what had happened, or somewhat at least, and say that if Harm and I decide to make the step to parenthood, he could donate sperm and they could extract my eggs and mix them, then put them back in me, and we might possibly be able to make a baby. I don't want my option gone, but anymore, I wonder if Harm even wants a child. He hasn't mentioned it or even said anything about it. And that surprises me.
When we get in the car, he pulls out and as we're driving, lays his hand over mine on my thigh and looks over at me. "Mac, I want to ask you something." And then I realize it's coming. "Do you still want children?" I turn and look at him.
"Of course I do Harm. I've always wanted children, you know that. It's just, I don't know, Chloe has been going through some rough stuff lately and has been confiding in me and of course, Mattie is like my own child, and well, I just haven't really thought about having my own in a while."
"But you still want one?"
"Yeah, I do." I whisper, picking up his hand and laying a gentle kiss on the back of it.
"Do you want to try?" I sigh and look out the windshield.
"I just don't want to do all of this and then it turn out bad. It only hurts me when things don't turn out. I mean, what if we spend all this money and have all these procedures done and then we still can't make a child?"
"But what if we do all this and we do?" I close my eyes as I feel the tears come.
"I just don't now Harm. Why don't we discuss this at home later. I'm hungry and a bit agitated about a case right now, I'll be clear minded later." He drops it and that surprises me beyond words.
Pulling up to McMurphy's, we get out of the car and go in.


Posted by: jarhead_marine (jarhead_marine)
Posted at: September 30th, 2005 06:41 pm (UTC)

Harm's grip on me tightens even more as I nod a pleasant goodbye and watch them walk out of the restaurant. But for some reason, I feel as if he's walking out my life, not just McMurphy's.
"Hey..." Harm whispers. I'm sure he felt me shiver. "You okay?" I nod and lean against him, glad to have his strength with me.
"Yeah Harm, I'm finally okay. Because I'm with you." I look up at him and he smiles. Leaning down, he kisses me passionately, something hiding behind it, something saying that it could turn into more. I giggle as I feel his fingertips on my thigh.
"Wanna go back to the house and skip the rest of work today?"
"Harmon Rabb Jr.! Are you thinking about being rebellious?" I ask, as if I'm shocked as hell.
"Maybe..." He says, leaning down to my ear. "Our cases are done for the week, the new cases coming in can wait till morning. I'm sure that if we ask the Admiral he won't mind." I watch as he removes his cell from his pocket and hits speed-dial number two. "Admiral, it's Rabb. Do you mind if Mac and I take the afternoon off?" His hand clasps mine as he smiles over at me. "Yes Sir, our cases are done. ...And yes Sir, we will start fresh early in the morning. ...You too Sir." He hangs up, stands up, and pulls me out of the booth. "Come on Jarhead, let's go have some fun." I giggle and follow quickly behind.

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