Harm and Mac's House1230 ZULUHarm groped my hips as we stumbled in the doorway of the house. Both Chloe and Mattie were at school and weren't due until three-thirty. Three hours of us time. I was excited as hell. He was kissing me and kissing me hard. My hands were grasping the back of his neck and our bodies were smacked up against one another's.Somehow, not losing the connection our bodies had made, we made it up the stairs, into the bedroom, and had gotten undressed. He threw me onto the bed, gently, not roughly, and crawled over me. He clasped my hands in his and held them over my head. I giggled as his lips made their way down my neck, over my shoulders, down my chest, over my stomach, and towards the inevitable. And as they reached it, I whimpered, closed my eyes, and allowed the ecstasy to take over.
*Two hours later, Mac collapses beside me, panting heavily. She curls up into my side and I wrap a gentle arm around her, placing a gentle kiss on her brow. She purrs....a lot like a cat actually, and I make a mental note to tease her about it when both of us are more coherent.* "I'd say this is a pretty nice house-warming." *I whisper into her ear.* "God I love you Sarah..." *I look around our room, and I honestly have to wonder how we got this far.*
As I feel Harm's arms around me, I purr like a cat, and I know that he's going to tease me about that when we're both in the right frame of mind. "This is a really nice house-warming." I reply. "And I love you too Harm." I watch him look around our room and smile when I know he's wondering how we got this far. I push away from him and sit up on my elbows. Throwing a foot over his leg, I run my toes over his ankle. "Harm, can we talk about something?" He meets my eyes, smiles, and nods. "I want to try to have a baby." I bite my bottom lip and eagerly wait his reply.
*...Don't panic Rabb. If you panic, it's going to look like you don't want to have a kid with her. If you panic, she'll take it the wrong way, and before you know it, she'll be gone, and you'll be screwed if that happens. So just don't...* "What?" *Yeah. Smooth. So much for not panicking. Immediately a hurt look crosses her face and I know I have to backtrack....fast, to ease her worries.* "That came out wrong." *See Rabb? Admitting you're wrong is easy! Sigh....How did I get to be a lawyer?* "You just took me by surprise. I mean, not too long ago, we weren't even speaking, and now....I just don't want to rush into anything. Everything is going so good right now, and I just, don't want to mess any of that up. I do want to have children with you, I just want to make sure that it's the right time." *I take a deep breath, and I'm rather proud of myself. That didn't go too bad, now did it?*
I look at him with a hurt expression. I thought he would be exited about this. "Rush into anything? Harm, I've waited for us to be together for ten years. You're the only man I ever saw as the father of my children. Why wait? We're so happy. How will having children mess anything up?" I don't wanna push him or make him feel bad about saying what he did, but children is just something that I've wanted for so long. And with my endometriosis, I worried that I'd never be able to have children. That devastated me. I'm not sure he knows how much. But with technology that science has created, I'd like to try. "Harm, I'm not getting any younger and my reproductive organs aren't getting any healthier. I just don't want to miss my chance for us to connect in a way that I've never connected with anyone." He doesn't understand how much I love him, how much I want to have his children, how much I want us to be this big, happy family. "I love you Harmon Rabb Jr. I don't want to make you feel bad or guilty or anything else. I just..." But he reaches up, cups my cheek, and smiles. And I know he understands.
"Sweetie..." *I whisper, gently cupping her cheek. I understand that children mean a lot to her, and they mean a lot to me too. There's nothing that I want more than to watch Mac be pregnant with my child. But I just want us to move slowly, we've waited for this for so long, I don't want to risk screwing anything up.* "Sarah, I can't wait to watch you grow with my child inside of you. I'm not really scared of us screwing something up....I just want us to be sure of, everything, before we move on. Does that make any sense?" *I laugh, at myself of course, and she begins to giggle along with me. I always have a tendency to either phrase things awkwardly, or completely wrong. I think it's a disease. Someone should really come up with a cure for it.* "Sweetheart, you know that I love you more than anything in this world. And there's nothing I wouldn't do for you." *I pause for a moment, thinking of what to say next. This is it Rabb, please, for the love of God, don't screw this up...* "And if you think that you're ready for a baby, then I think that I'm ready to try."
I look into his eyes with a deepest sincerity and love in my heart. "Really Harm?" As he nods, I crawl over him and give him the deepest kiss in me. "I love you Harmon Rabb Jr. Good God, I love you so much." I giggle as his hands graze my back and can't wait for his baby to be growing inside of me. And as if he read my mind..."I can't wait to get started... you know, trying to have a baby. Making it is all the fun." I giggle once more as he pulls the covers up over us.